Lies

[Spoken]
Yeah, love is pain.
Dedicated to all my broken-hearted people.
One's old flame. Just scream my name.
And I'm so sick of love songs.
Yeah, I hate them damn love songs.
Mementos of ours.

[Verse One]
Late night, you come with the falling rain my mind begins to stir with the wet memories.
Even if I swear to myself I can live without you.
But I can't help it.
I fill my heart with alchohol, but I still feel empty.
They days without you feel so long.
I beg heaven to please erase you.
(It's all a lie.)
Without you I can't smile, tears don't even form.
I don't want to live anymore.
It's wrong, it pisses me off.
I feel like I'm going crazy thinking about you.
I can't see you even if I want to.
It's over, I'll be right there.

[Chorus]
I'm so sorry, but I love you.
It's a lie.
I didn't know, I know now that I need you.
I'm so sorry but I love you.
I said things out of anger and without me knowing I had to let you leave.
I'm so sorry, but I love you.
It's all a lie.
I'm so sorry, but I love you.
[I love you more, more.]
I'm so sorry, but I love you.
Can I forget it all slowly?
So I can be hurt.

[Verse Two]
The song I put my everything into and sung for you.
[People probably don't know.]
Alone, without anyone knowing.
Yeah, the lies I made.
I've been left alone, keep roaming with the loneliness.
The note for separation crumbled in my pocket.
Where are you?
The habit of calling you.
I want to change.
I want to laugh everything over.

[Chorus]
I'm so sorry, but I love you.
It's all a lie.
I didn't know, I know now that I need you.
I'm so sorry, but I love you.
I said things out of anger and without me knowing you had let you leave.
I'm so sorry, but I love you.
It's all a lie.
I'm so sorry, but I love you.
[I love you more, more.]
I'm so sorry, but I love you.
Can I forget you slowly?
So I can be hurt.

[Bridge]
Hope everything's a dream.
For being able to do only this.
I still can't forget you.
No, even eventually, even after death.
Has the scar I gave you healed?
I'm sorry for not being able to anything for you.

[Chorus]
I'm so sorry, but I love you.
It's all a lie.
I didn't know, I know now that I need you.
I'm so sorry, but I love you.
I said things out of anger and without me knowing I had let you leave.
I'm so sorry, but I love you.
It's all I lie.
I'm so sorry, but I love you.
[I love you more, more.]
I'm so sorry, but I love you.
Can I forget it all slowly?
So it can hurt.
(Bye, bye)

dont know what else to say already ><

Death

went to pray my ah gongs and ah ma today >< then went for double bass lesson was late D:

anyways, had lunch with my cousins and uncles and aunt :) had my favourite chicken rice at bishan!!!!!!

hahah that was the good!

then came home, the small bird outside my house died!!!!

damn poor thing, its foot got caught in the cotton wool used to make the nest. it got tangles and juz died D: damn sad!!!! then we push it back into the nest hoping that the parent will come back and do something

its mummy came back and you know what it did?!?!?!? it juz threw the chick out of the nest and onto the floor D: damn sad and bad D:

anyways, my mum decided to juz bury it, so we did that

it damn sad how being stuck can cause death. it also goes to show how fragile and unpredictable life can be D: hope the people in japan stay strong and fight on!!!! GANBETTE!!!! HWAITING!!!!

i shall now go reflect on the fragility and unpredictability of life

life's a pile of shit since i'm a failure

kk exam results are coming back one by one

got math, bio, chem back already D: failed all three

think i'm going to fail the rest too D:

then i'll most probably get superb grades like SSSSS or even SSSSU

hahahah i think it's funny how my grades just keep dropping and dropping

it's like i study but still no improvements

think im studying the wrongn way, so im gonna cut down on lots of stuff

dad's gonna return cable box,so cut dowon on korean variety shows alr

then busy everyday so cut down on facebook, twitter and blogging alr

not to mention cca and lessons, so my life will basically revolve around school and cca that's all

hope this will help me to concentrate and study better

shall find time to find ways to keep my stress level and sanity at optimal level :)

lost...

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most
I'm forever keeping my angel close

totally lost in everything now!!! feel like my past memories are coming back to haunt me again D: totally confused and lost

putting up a fake front will sure be tiring but i think thats the best that i should do now

emo again

hi guys!!!

CO camp's over, concert just finished yesterday!!!

new concert coming up soon D: shall practice hard!

anyways, im currently hooked on the opening of love the way you lie part 2

here it is

[Rihanna]
On the first page of our story
the future seemed so bright
then this thing turned out so evil
I don't know why I'm still surprised
even angels have their wicked schemes
and you take that to new extremes
but you'll always be my hero
even though you've lost your mind

[Chorus]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
but that's all right because I like the way it hurts
just gonna stand there and hear me cry
but that's all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Ohhh, I love the way you lie

[Rihanna]
Now there's gravel in our voices
glass is shattered from the fight
in this tug of war, you'll always win
even when I'm right
'cause you feed me fables from your hand
with violent words and empty threats
and it's sick that all these battles
are what keeps me satisfied

[Chorus]

[Rihanna]
So maybe I'm a masochist
I try to run but I don't wanna ever leave
til the walls are goin' up
in smoke with all our memories

[Eminem]
This morning, you wake, a sunray hits your face
smeared makeup as we lay in the wake of destruction
hush baby, speak softly, tell me I'll be sorry
that you pushed me into the coffee table last night
so I can push you off me
try and touch me so I can scream at you not to touch me
run out the room and I'll follow you like a lost puppy
baby, without you, I'm nothing, I'm so lost, hug me
then tell me how ugly I am, but that you'll always love me
then after that, shove me, in the aftermath of the
destructive path that we're on, two psychopaths but we
know that no matter how many knives we put in each other's backs
that we'll have each other's backs, 'cause we're that lucky
together, we move mountains, let's not make mountains out of molehills,
you hit me twice, yeah, but who's countin'?
I may have hit you three times, I'm startin' to lose count
but together, we'll live forever, we found the youth fountain
our love is crazy, we're nuts, but I refused counsellin'
this house is too huge, if you move out I'll burn all two thousand
square feet of it to the ground, ain't shit you can do about it
with you I'm in my f-ckin' mind, without you, I'm out it

[Chorus]

totally hooked!!

anyway changes in habits coming soon, going to become a pessimist soon!

hope that the people that i hope can help me will help me and not actually make me suffer!

i tink you guys know who you are!! two people have been added to the list but that are not as important as the others yt, will see how it goes on due course :)

MY 111TH POST!!!!!!

So today's the first day of holidays (WHAT HOLIDAYS?!?!?!??!!?)

firstly my timetable is freaking packed!!!

YO rehearsals and concert

e-assessments and homework

NOT FORGETING THE EVER AWESOME CO CAMPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOHOO!!!!!

cant wait for it to come!!!! 2 more days!!!!! >< hahaha

hope i make many many new frens and also have fun!!!!!! ^^

that aside, i shall have an ulterior motive!!!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~ -EBIL LAUGHTER-

kk gtg and prepare to go out alr D: yo rehearsal tonight!!!

ASS

its about time i start to tell the world about my irritating and idiotic brother!!!

he's a complete irresponsible lazy person!!!!

he totally can leave something disgusting lik cut nails on the table for days and not clear it away!!!!

and he fricking gets on my nerves with his lazy irresponsible antics!!!!!!

not to mention that he totally only cares for himself and not for others!!!!!

his exam he study until very late, ppl have to help him do stuff, parents dun disturb him

MY EXAM LEH???!?!?!?!?! HE DOESNT CARE AND DUN EVEN BOTHER TO HELP ME DO THINGS!!!!! JUST SIT THERE AND WATCH TV LIKE A FRICKING PRINCE I MEAN PIECE OF SHIT!!!!

YOU KNOW WHAT!!!!! IF I FAIL CTS I DUN GIV A SHIT ALR!!!!!

srsly you SUCK big time!!!!!

irresponsible idiotic irritating lazy brother!!!!! (IIILB)

signing off, pissed person D: