To Angel

This is very touching :/ almost cried while watching it D: hope you like it too

I MISS YOU

THE TITLE SAYS IT ALL

Long Time No Post

Hey peeps!!! it's been a long time since i last posted...

Many things have happened since with A Levels And the loss of time and lots of mugging and stuff!!!

Many things that I want to do after my As...

Watch movies, catch up with friends and also to stalk SNSD!!!!! YES!!! they're coming to singapore!!!!

though they will be coming on the 28th i think since they performing for MAMA and then still gt their concert!!!! Confirm spending the two weeks in SG!!! HAHAAHHA :D GONNA FIND YOONA!!!!!

some vids that i thought you would lik since i loveeee them hahahh




This is part 2, after hello

Hello...

We can't break up- It's too early for separation for us
You can't just leave me like this
There's so much that I didn't say yet
Please don't leave me like this

Because it's you, I'm-
Because it was you, I-
I can't go on like this
The reason I live is only you
Please don't leave me

You are my love, my love that I long for
You're the person that used to love me
Now I can't touch you but
Will you long for me as much as I long for you?
The person that I loved crazily, hello hello

Because I loved you, I'm-
Because I really loved you, I'm-
Suffering to the point of death, to the point of death
Can you see me dying and not alive?
Please come back to me

You are my love, my love that I long for
You're the person that used to love me
Now I can't touch you but
Will you long for me as much as I long for you?
The person that I loved crazily

If it was going to end like this
If this is really the end
I want to go back to the time when we didn't know each other
If it's too late, if it's too late
I think I'll finish myself because living is too hard (x2)

Yo, listen up. This is my tragic story. Just to break into my heart. Check it.

Chorus A)

I still can't erase you
Again and again I think of you
I miss you too much
I can't sleep at night
The raindrops are knocking at my heart's window
The place that you've left
I miss it too much
I can't sleep at night

Rap2)

The view of your backside walking through the rainy path/
I can't do anything but stay
Everyday I keep regretting it, I'm sorry/ I pray
I want you to be back
I can't, I can't touch you/ I can't bear the day without you
Can't hold back the tears
again I can't forget you/ Till when will I be
like this

Chorus A)

I still can't erase you
Again and again I think of you
I miss you too much
I can't sleep at night
The raindrops are knocking at my heart's window
The place that you've left
I miss it too much
I can't sleep at night

Chorus B)

Oh tonight again, tonight again her

Rap1)

I'm thinking of you I can't sleep
/ why did I turn on this love show
Your path and mine are far apart/I was the
slave of to this love
Why did we fight why were we like this
Did you lose the sight we were in love
Why am I lost in this time I'm the fool
The one I need is you

Rap3)

Your shoulders are slumped/your sighs
break the ground under you
hitting your frustrated heart/ With two hands together
you start to pray
I understand your feelings/let's forget
the bad memories
(I'm sorry) I know how you feel/ I can't say anything but 'sorry'

Chorus A)

I still can't erase you
Again again I think of you
I miss you too much
I can't sleep at night
The raindrops are knocking at my heart's window
The place that you've left
I miss it too much
I can't sleep at night

Chorus B)

Oh tonight again, tonight again

Hook)

Y&I don't cut our ties/ don't deny our r²π
Come to me it's okay now/ We will restart everything again and again
I can't sleep at night

Chorus A)

I still can't erase you
Again and again I think of you
I miss you too much
I can't sleep at night
The raindrops are knocking at my heart's window
The place that you've left
I miss it too much
I can't sleep at night


Really really love this two songs :/
ESPECIALLY THE FIRST ONE!!!
watching the mv really made me think about how i treat my friends and all :/

farewell assembly's over
remedial programme starts tomorrow...
it's worse than my normal school day :/
hope i can find time to study and relax :/

just hoping that i can remain optimistic just as ms tee said i should be :/

Time Again

Superman!!!

Sometime I wish I were him...indestructible, so strong, so trustworthy. :/

But I guess it's just not meant to be...

I still a weakling living in this heartless world, trying to lie to myself :/



As usual...new kpop group with pwetty gurls!!!

Tia from Chocolat...the girl that appears the most in the mv ^^ hahah :D PRETTY RIGHT?!?!?!?

anyway...acting up again :/

Emo me...forever emo :/

trying hard to keep my happy self shone...

hope it works well:/

here's some ageyo from myy pretty dear (deer) YoonA ^^v



YoonA's SOOOOOOOOO CUTEEEEEEEEE AND PRETTYYYYYYY!!!!!!!! v^^v

Records

I might look dumb and do dumb actions and say stupid things, but do not and i mean do not ever ever belittle me :/

anyway, i've decided that i'm gonna keep records on who i tell my secrets and my passwords to... it's written somewhere

anyway, i'm feeling like a fool hahah :/

guess u kno abotu it alr >< since u've been acting strangely :/ oh well...

i'm just a fool...easily taken advantage of... easily cheated...easily lied to...

i sometimes feel lik tissue, use and throw one side...need me again, then come and take me and use...then throw one side...

i guess that's just my life...

i should take this long break to calm myself down, clear my mind and start all over again :/ mayb that will help ^^

i hope i'm still the optimist that someone told me i should be ^^

Suddenly...

I couldn’t come up with any words.
I really did not know I’d see you again.
Somewhere buried deep inside my heart.
I have longed and ached for you.

When I turn around I see the smiling face.
The face that is always there, behind me.
This dizzy feeling keeps me up at night.
Traces of you keep me crying again.

Tell me now, how was I wrong?
Tell me now, was I lacking?

I really desired you like crazy.
I always prayed that I could see you again.
I feel as though I will die like this.
Can’t you be the one coming to me now.
Please.

I told myself I’d be fine alone.
That I could do well without you.
I tell myself this as I try to force myself to sleep.
But all I can think of are the way you speak and look.

Tell me now, how was I wrong?
Tell me now, was I lacking?

I really desired you like crazy.
I always prayed that I could see you again.
I feel as though I will die like this.
Can’t you be the one coming to me now?

I really desired you like crazy.
I always prayed that I could see you again.
I feel as though I will die like this.
Can’t you be the one coming to me now?
Please.
Please.


I wonder what's wrong with me :/
oh well...give myself some time to sort out...
talked to someone today on the way home, made me think about what i should do

Lost again....

told ms tee that i'm lost, and she told me to just focus on getting good grades then worry about the future...

i guess she's right, i should just focus on A levels first...

had talk about ct2 results...just what?! i dropped!!!!! now bottom 5% of cohort. D; it sucks...

ms chen did a good job at motivating us before telling us that we might not be able to do it :/ seriously -.-

anyway, i got the simple message that is... I SUCK!!!! :/ period D:

Emo again :/

I don't know what's wrong with me these days.

Been feeling especially high towards the end of the day...sign that i'm tired already...

I don't know what's wrong but I keep telling people stuff that I swore to keep to myself. Can't I ever keep my mouth shut?! :/

been talking less to my friends already...it seems like I'm distancing myself from lots of people. but that's just life right? like 'cause everyone's mugging so i shouldn't disturb them right? like how people deserve personal space. :/

I think it's time I start thinking about what I seriously want in life...

Clearly it's not a girlfriend and stuff...

I guess I just want to be acknowledged? or maybe just want a little love?

People always to give and not expect much...I think I've been doing too much already...it's taking its toll D: I seriously don't know what I can do now...

The future seems uncertain for me again...people go through this phase once in their life...

I've been through it once last year...today same time, one year on, I'm going through it again T_T

I feel lost, I feel lonely, I feel deprived, I feel I've let people down, I feel sad...

Maybe I really need some time off from everything...like just take a break from everything, give myself time to think...but i guess i can't do that...i've got no time :/

it's now less than 100 days to A levels and I'm not even a quarter done with revision...

TIME TO BUCK UP :/

I need motivation...I need people to keep me in check...

most importantly, i need to stop thoughts from getting to my heart and mind :/

Touching Songs

Watching Immortal Song II on KBS and saw the Immortal Classic for Boohwal...

The songs are really touching :D





I'm feeling kinda empty and sad :/ i don;t know why...

Maybe it's results, maybe it's just life...

Guess it's the time to pause and think about the future...

Had a weird passing thought about what will happen if both my parents died :/ it;s kind of disturbing but I guess it's true...it might happen one day :/

Guess I'm just tired that's why I have these random thoughts :/

Superstar

tvxqsms by juniorsweet

SNSD ^^

SNSD 4EVA!!! :D



just felt the urge to post these videos ^^ hahahah :D







YOONA <3 <3 <3 <3 <3!!!!!!!! ^^

T-ARA's new song ^^



Miss A's new mv (not the full coz the frnt part was talking)



MBLAQ's new MV

Screwed...

Don't think anyone got lower than me for Chemistry MCQ for CT2s...seriously even if you mark a single choice for all the options, still can get higher than me... (ask me if you want to know the marks)

feeling like a bloody failure now...

failure in life, failure in studies, failure in everything...

I'M A GOOD-FOR-NOTHING!!!!

seriously Gwyn Tan!!!1 WHAT ARE YOU GOOD AT?

playing? sleeping? eating? k-pop?

wonder what you can do now...

-feeling like a failure...what can I do?-

The End

The closing chapter for the CCA that I've spent 6 years in, since primary school...

Today marks the last concert for my SNYO life... in this last is a first, my first outdoor concert... in the first, many more lasts...

After all these years of playing music and getting to know both worlds of music, I have to say goodbye to both of these two worlds already...

It saddens me that the two worlds complemented each other and are where I enjoy playing.

I hope that I'll still get a chance to go back to play, but I guess it's highly unlikely considering that I'm going to NS like next year...

So yup...my final concert with SNYO...

Will really really miss the moments, the jokes, the laughter, and all...

Most importantly, I'm going to miss the people there, my friends :/

With this, I'll keep SNYO memories in my heart, as the chapter comes to an end...

The End and Goodbye

-will really miss SNYO-

Once...

once while living... T_T feeling empty now.... cavity in the feelings :/

Even if I close my eyes, my tears are flowing
I see you, no, I want to see you
I know, everything has already ended
The same space, the same time, the same world, but
Wherever I look, wherever I go, I can't see you
We should meet at least once while living
I'm still living there
Where are you?
No matter what your doing be healthy and always live happily
I'm really thankful that you're alive
The news about you is my reason for living
I know, everything has already ended
A different encounter, a different person, even if it's love, it's ok
Whoever you meet, whatever you do, as long as you're happy, that's enough
We should meet at least once while living
I'm still living there
Where are you?
No matter what your doing be healthy and always live happily
(At least once while living, at least once while living. Still there, still alive)
Once, just once if we meet
For you being born, for meeting you, I'm thankful
Live well...you must be happy

Emo Shit

So today will be my last SNYO concert at the Botanic Gardens :/ it feels kind of sad that after 6 years in YO, I'm going to go on break... Not sure if I'm Coming back..

Anyway, got back CT2 results, as expected, failed bio... Passed math but need go for remedial -.-

Sighzzz.... Looks like I need to put aside everything now and just concentrate on studying already :/

Spoke to Ms Tee on Friday and lucky for me, she understood how I felt... But it made me remember the times in primary school when I was called an underachiever :/ It sucked because I was forced to study more...

Anyway, I going to go prepare for my concert already...

Will try to not be soooo sad or emo ^^

-hiding behind the mask of smiling face and strong appearance, is a fragile sad heart yearning for happiness and bliss-

Back Again

That feeling is back again....

Feeling shitty and stuff :/

It's times like this when I really hate myself!!!

I want to rebel!!!

I want to go against people, to not take any instructions, to live life my way...

I want a piercing!!!

I seem to be going downhill again...

It's the time again :/

It's like a cycle that repeats itself every three to four months...

I doubt anyone will understand

sighzzzzzzz......

hope it passes quickly this time...

You never fail to make me smile even in the darkest periods ^^

Mixed Emotions

Been listening to lots of songs...

I feel that I should post some of them with the lyrics too.

When you were standing in the wake of devastation
when you were waiting on the edge of the unknown
with the cataclysm raining down, insides crying save me now
you were there and possibly alone.

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
you build up hope, but failure's all you've known
remember all the sadness and frustration
and let it go, let it go.

And in the burst of light that blinded every angel
as if the sky had blown the heavens into stars
you felt the gravity of temper grace falling into empty space
no one there to catch you in their arms


Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
you build up hope, but failure's all you've known
remember all the sadness and frustration
and let it go, let it go.

(Multiple Voices)
Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
you build up hope, but failure's all you've known
remember all the sadness and frustration
and let it go,

let it go
let it go
let it go
let it go

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
you build up hope, but failure's all you've known
remember all the sadness and frustration
and let it go, let it go.

I can be tough, I can be strong
But with you it's not like that at all
There's a girl that gives a shit
Behind this wall, you've just walked through it

And I remember all those crazy things you said, you left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere, but right now I wish you were here
All those crazy things we did, didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere, but right now I wish you were here

Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you here, here, here, I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you near, near, near, I wish you were here

I love the way you are
It's who I am, don't have to try hard
We always say, say it like it is
And the truth is that I really miss

All those crazy things you said, you left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere, but right now I wish you were here
All those crazy things we did, didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere, but right now I wish you were here

Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you here, here, here, I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you near, near, near, I wish you were here

No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you to know
That I never wanna let go
Let go, oh oh

No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you to know
That I never wanna let go
(Let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go..)

Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you here, here, here, I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you near, near, near, I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you here, here, here, I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you near, near, near, I wish you were here

I’m sad, so sad.
Crying and crying
My day without you is so hard
I hate you, I hate this hurtful pain
My tears keep falling since you left

I still see your face
All those memories of me with you keep coming to my mind
Everyday I meet with all my friends to drink, only remembering your face feels like a dagger in my heart
I forgot that you’ve forgotten that big smile but, we said you said you erased and cleared me from your head
This can’t be like this (really) that can’t be (really)
What will I do?

Baby one last cry
[you're crying inside] Now stop smiling on the outside
Why do my heart and my eyes keep looking at only you?

I’m sad, so sad.
Crying and crying
My day without you is so hard
I hate you, I hate this hurtful pain
My tears keep falling since you left

Are you forgotten? Have you forgotten how I look?
You heard I was fine so you’re comfortable without me?
You didn’t forget about me already
You’re looking for another love. Will you erase me?

I won’t, I’m not saying you only saw me drunk
Will you hear? Are you hearing me calling only for you?
A day (is passing) a month (is passing)
Why does my heart feel the same way?

Baby one last cry
[you're crying inside] Now stop smiling on the outside
Why do my heart and my eyes keep looking at only you?

I’m sad, so sad.
Crying and crying
My day without you is so hard
I hate you, I hate this hurtful pain
My tears keep falling since you left

Come back
I still only see you, I’m waiting for your love

Baby one last cry
[you're crying inside] Now stop smiling on the outside
Why do my heart and my eyes keep looking at only you?

I’m sad, so sad.
Crying and crying
My day without you is so hard
I hate you, I hate this hurtful pain
My heart is crying since your left

[DJ] When the world turns dark
And the rain quietly falls
Everything is still
.
[KK] Even today, without a doubt
I can’t get out of it
I can’t get out from the thoughts of you
.
[YS] Now
I know that it’s the end
I know that it’s all just foolishness
Now I know that it’s not true
[HS] I am just disappointed in myself for
Not being able to get a hold of you because of that pride
.
[YS] On the rainy days you come and find me
Torturing me through the night
When the rain starts to stop, you follow
Slowly, little by little, you will stop as well

[JH] I must be drunk, I think I need to stop drinking
Since the rain is falling, I think I might fall as well
Well this doesn’t mean that I miss you, no it doesn’t mean that
It just means that the time we had together was a bit sharp
When it’s the type of day that you really liked
I keep opening the raw memories of you
Making the excuse that it’s all memories, I take a step forward
I don’t even make the effort to escape
.
[DW] Now
I erased all of you
I emptied out all of you
But when the rain falls again
[KK] All the memories of you I hid with effort
It all comes back, it must be looking for you
.
[YS] On the rainy days you come and find me
Torturing me through the night
When the rain starts to stop, you follow
Slowly, little by little, you will stop as well
.
(To you) [HS] Now there is no path for me to return
But looking at your happy face
[DW] I will still try to laugh since I was the one
Without the strength to stop you
.
[YS] On the rainy days you come and find me
Torturing me through the night
When the rain starts to stop, you follow
Slowly, little by little, you will stop as well
.
[JH] What can I do about something that already ended?
I’m just regretting after like the stupid fool I am
Rain always falls so it will repeat again
When it stops, that’s when I will stop as well
.
[JH] Rain always falls so it will repeat again
When it stops, that’s when I will stop as well

[Adam Levine]
My heart's a stereo
It beats for you, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every note

Make me your radio
Turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo

[Travie McCoy]
If I was just another dusty record on the shelf
Will you blow me off and play me like everybody else
If I ask you to scratch my back, could you manage that
Like it read well, check it Travie, I can handle that
Furthermore, I apologize for any skipping tracks
It's just the last girl that played me left a couple cracks
I used to used to used to used to, now I’m over that
Cause holding grudges over love is ancient artifacts

If I could only find a note to make you understand
I'd sing it softly in your ear and grab you by the hand
Keep it stuck your head, like your favorite tune
And know my heart is a stereo that only plays for you

[Chorus]
My heart's a stereo
It beats for you, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every note

Make me your radio
Turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo

Oh oh oh oh To my stereo
Oh oh oh oh So sing along to my stereo

[Travie McCoy]
If I was an old-school, fifty pound boombox
Would you hold me on your shoulder, wherever you walk
Would you turn my volume up in front of the cops
And crank it higher everytime they told you to stop
And all I ask is that you don't get mad at me
When you have to purchase mad D batteries
Appreciate every mixtape your friends make
You never know we come and go like we're on the interstate

I think finally found a note to make you understand
If you can hit it, sing along and take me by the hand
Keep myself inside your head, like your favorite tune
And know my heart is a stereo that only plays for you

[Chorus]
My heart's a stereo
It beats for you, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every note

Make me your radio
Turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo

Oh oh oh oh To my stereo
Oh oh oh oh So sing along to my stereo

[Bridge]
I only pray you never leave me behind (Never leave me)
Because good music can be so hard to find (So hard to find)
I take your hand and pull it closer to mine
Thought love was dead, but now you're changing my mind

[Chorus]
My heart's a stereo
It beats for you, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every note

Make me your radio
Turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo

Oh oh oh oh To my stereo
Oh oh oh oh So sing along to my stereo

I was on the mic

Doing my thing on a friday night

Had the floor burning up just right
Everybody was bumping', the club was jumping
Suddenly, you walked in
That's when everybody stopped dancing
And I couldn't stop myself staring
Yeah I couldn't breath, No I couldn't believe my eyes

I never thought I'd fall in love in a club
But now I seen you girl I can't get enough
With you I know there's no taking it slow
So can somebody please let me know

[Chorus]
Tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Just walk walk (walk), walk walk (walk), yeah

Before the night is through
Imma tell ya how I feel about you
And I know I got some work to do
To make you believe that you should be leaving with me

I never thought I'd fall in love in a club
The more I get of you, I can't get enough
I won't be letting you leave here alone
So can somebody please let me know

[Chorus]
Tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Just walk walk (walk), walk walk (walk)

(I wanna know) Tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
(Who's that girl) Tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Just walk walk (walk), walk walk (walk)

[Eve]
E.V.E
I walk in the club it's over
All them other chicks might as well move over
Wanna know my name then you gotta get closer
Eyes on you too wanna get to know ya
Lemme run it down for ya, I'm not easy
Some say caramel, you can call me evie
Wanna be the man in my life that please me
Gotta warn in, Once ya know me, you need me
Give you whip lash when I glide through the room
Five inch heals, watch how I move
Watch how I shake it to the beat, how I do
Know you wanna feel me, feel me shake it on you, yeah
The night could get crazy
But I gotta hold back, I'm a lady
Well who knows maybe I could be your baby
Be your baby, be your baby

[Guy]
Wo-oh
Wo-oh oh
Wo-oh
Wo-oh

[Chorus]
So, tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Just walk walk (walk) in the club

Tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Just walk walk (walk) in the club

Movies!!!

Hey people!!!! Long time since i posted hahahhha :D

Anyway, CT2 was just over :/ Shitty MAXXXXXXX!!!!!!

ok title suggests....movies!!!1

Went to watch two movies with my dear family of us four only!!!

X-Men:First Class and Transformers 3 : Dark Of The Moon




My favourite scene of X-Men besides the fight scenes HAHAHHA

Transformers was BETTER!!!! WAYYY WAYYYYY BETTER!!!!!!

All the fight scenes littered through out the film!!!

WOAHHH!!!!!! I like the theme song the best

Time is [L]Over

Don't know what I've been doing for the past few days or past two weeks
Reading people's blogs, googling random stuff like haunted stories of Singapore...

Seems like I lost all sense of direction ever since VJCO chalet last week :/
I thought that I would be free...
But it seems like I have lost all motivation
Don't feel like studying now...

Feels like a certain part of me is missing :/ And i don't know what or where it is

Reading someone's blog, I wonder where I am :/

Feeling so hopeless and helpless now that I can't help or even see them :/

Haven't been talking to the people that I talk to all the time
Gerriii, Xuan Ming, Jordy, Boon, Fabian and the others :/

Feeling freaking empty now D:
Nothing seems to be able to feel the void :/

studying, watching tv, listening to kpop...
all don't seem to work...

hope movie outing with xinyi, charmaine and calvin will be fun to let me forget my void ^^v

Songs that I post...

Some might think that the songs I post here have no meaning...but think again, I don't do stuff that has no meaning.

So the songs I post have meanings, just take your time to decipher it.

Think slowly, ask me and I might tell you.

Besides the performances videos, the songs all have meanings, especially those with lyrics.

Take your time to enjoy the songs. ^^v

光良

HIS SONGS ARE DAMN NICE AND PLEASANT TO THE EARS!!!!!

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要怎麼收藏　要怎麼擁有
如果你快樂　不是為我
會不會放手　其實才是擁有

當一陣風吹來　風箏飛上天空
為了你而祈禱　而祝福　而感動
終於你身影　消失在人海盡頭
才發現　笑著哭　最痛

那天你和我　那個山丘
那樣的唱著　那一年的歌
那樣的回憶　那麼足夠
足夠我天天　都品嚐著寂寞

當一陣風吹來　風箏飛上天空
為了你而祈禱　而祝福　而感動
終於你身影　消失在人海盡頭
才發現　笑著哭　最痛

當一陣風吹來　風箏飛上天空
為了你而祈禱　而祝福　而感動
終於你身影　消失在人海盡頭
才發現　笑著哭　最痛

如果我愛上　你的笑容
要怎麼收藏　要怎麼擁有
如果你快樂　不是為我
會不會放手　其實才是擁有

知足的快樂　叫我忍受心痛

知足的快樂　叫我忍受心痛


I've got no idea why but this songs is pulling at my heart's strings D:
It seems to be telling me something that I need to do!

Guess it's just telling me to be content with what I have

What the HELLLL~ is wrong with me!!!!!
Why can't my mind decide on things?
Will my mind just come to a conclusion fast?

the way you behave and all will not do anything to prevent me from sinking deeper...

Pissed...

NOT SAYING MUCH!!!! JUST F-ING PISSED WITH SOMEONE WHO SHLD BE DOING EVERYTHING!!!

NOT ME!!!!!!

PISSED PISSED PISSED PISSED!!!!!!!

CANT SCOLD HERE COZ THIS BLOG IS CLEAN!!!!

NEED TO LET IT OUT BUT NOWHERE TO...

AAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

WHY ARE YOU SOOOOO SELFISH!!!!!! WANT TO BE FISHMONGER ISIT!!!!! BITCH!!!!!

I Think...

[Shane:]
Day after day
Time passed away
And I just can't get you off my mind
Nobody knows, I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can't find

[Mark:]
The courage to show to letting you know
I've never felt so much love before

[All (Shane lead):]
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

[All:]
But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me? ([Shane:] oh yeah)
How will I know
[Shane:] if I let you go?

[Bryan:]
Night after night I hear myself say
Why can't this feeling just fade away
There's no one like you (no one like you)
You speak to my heart (speak to my heart)
It's such a shame we're worlds apart

[Shane:]
I'm too shy to ask, I'm too proud to lose
But sooner or later I gotta choose
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

[All:]
But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be, holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me? (oh yeah)
How will I know
[Shane:] if I let you go ?

[Shane:]
If I let you go ooooh baby
Ooooooooohhhhh

[Bryan:]
Once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out
Ooooooooohhhhh

[All:]
But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be, holding you close to me
([Mark:] close to me)
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
([Shane:] oh yeah)
How will I know
([Bryan:] if I let you go?)
But if I let you go I will never know
([Mark:] oh baby)
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
([Shane:] oh yeah)
How will I know
[Shane:] if I let you go ?

Can't make up my mind :/
why why why am i always so indecisive...
why do i always think back into the past...
what would happen in the future?
i really can't bear to think about it :/

you may think you know but i'm always very indecisive

...

What can I say?

Void that cant be filled :/

song from the VJCO video

wonder when i'll sort out my thoughts...

hope it's soon...

The End?

Yesterday was Vhapsody 2011. It marks the end of my Chinese Orchestra journey...for now that is.

Still remember clearly how my life is CO began.

But oh well. All good things have to end right? Whether we want it to end or not.

During these past year I've really enjoyed myself in this CO, in VJCO!!!

Even though I've had many problems to struggle with, I;m glad that there was always someone there to lead me back to the right path or simply just to hear me rant.

I've made friends. Friends that I won't say will last me through my life. But they are definitely friends that I know will be willing to hear me rant, willing to help me through my tough times. Some of them I barely know for 6 months but I think they know more about me than I about them.

I hope that these people will remain with me throughout my life, and WE MUST STILL KEEP IN CONTACT!!!!

I know that this is definitely not the end of CO for me...It's merely just a break... ^^

关怀方式

juz felt that i had to post this after seeing this on someone's blog :/

makes me feel a tinge of pain...a wringing of my heart is felt as i listen to this song...

I wonder why?

Selflessness

I am willing to sacrifice myself just to make everyone happy. INCLUDING YOU.

All you have to do is ask.

I am willing to sacrifice myself and be the one that gets hurt.

I rather it not be you that gets hurt.

Selflessness is not something that one can easily say or do...

I am willing to give up everything to make you feel better.

Don't be reckless...make the right choice and be rational!!!

No one else can help you except yourself unless you remain rational!!!

Cheering up? NEVER!!!

I feel sooo soooo soooo soooo F-ing guilty. like seriously.....

totally at a loss now that the shit is all over...

it's funny how i always cheer people up when they are down...

i just hope that there will someone who will be there to cheer me up...someone close like a friend

i just hope that i can cheer up and get over this...

but as the title suggests...it seems impossible D: its gonna be for life

im gonna feel damn guilty for my whole life!!!

this last SYF in my whole life and it ends up like this

to all VJCO members out there, i'm sorry...it's all my fault that it turned out this way today.

looks like whatever that anyone says will not help me now

its over

So Pretty & Cute!!!!

LOVE YOU FOREVER & EVER & EVER!!!!! LOVE YOONA

DO NOT...

DO NOT EVER EVER INCUR MY WRATH!!!!

DO NOT TRY ANYTHING FUNNY BEHIND MY BACK AND ALSO TO THOSE AROUND ME!!!

I WILL KNOW!!!!

IF YOU EVER EVER DO, THEN MAY I WISH YOU GOOD LUCK BECAUSE YOUR LIFE IS OVER!!!

that's all i have to say to the people that are trying to be funny and ruining people's life.

you might argue that what i've heard or seen is biased. but rest assured i have eyes and ears and i can tell right from wrong

so don't even think about trying anything funny if not...

I think I still like you

this is all i have to say today >< wonder when i can be free again ^^v

Worried

Maybe you know, maybe you don't.

Truth is, I'm getting worried. Over things and people.

Many things have happened recently. Me going through my own rough patch but still not fully out yet. And others around me having their own problems.

Please don't ever ever give up on oneself because someone doesn't treasure you or what. YOU DESERVE BETTER!!!!

Don't think so much about it, just like how you tell me.

I might not be able to fully understand how you feel but seriously, I understand a part of it.

Seeing is really hurting. the truth is never nice. D:

But cheer up!!! At least you've got friends around you.

I believe you should know this since you can tell by observing. I'm worried.

Worried that you're not eating well.

Worried that you're not trying hard enough to get over it.

Yet at the same time, I feel glad that you have less than 3 weeks left :)

You might not know, but it hurts to see my friend not doing well ): It hurts even more that you are like this D: so PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE CHEER UP!!!!!

Here's 3 songs dedicated to you (hope you listen to them and cheer up :D):

FANBOY AGAIN

WOOHOO!!!! ^^v

Can never get enough!!!!

Totally love them!!!!!

YOONAAA~~~~~~!!!!!!!!! -HEART MELTS-

Songs that i used to like

Struggling...

How can I just let you walk away

Just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking
Every breath with you oohhhh
You're the only one
Who really knew me at all

How can you just walk away from me
When all I can do is watch you leave
'Cause we've shared the laughter and the pain
And even shared the tears
You're the only one
Who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now
'Cause there's just an empty space
There's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
So take a look at me now
'Cause there's just an empty space
And you coming back to me, is against the odds
And that's what I've got to faceeeee

I wish I could just make you turn around
Turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why
You're the only one
Who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now
'Cause there's just an empty space
There's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
So Take a look at me now
Cause there's just an empty space
But to wait for you is
All I can do
And that's what I've got to face.
Take a good look at me now
'Cause l'll still be standing (standing here)
And you coming back to me is against all odds
That's the chance I've got to take
(chance I got to take, got to takeeee)

Yeahhhhh
Take A look at me now
(Take A Look at me nowwwww)

Hurt

Don’t worry, I won’t cry again
Now I don’t want it either, I don’t want to love
Are you just going to leave me like this?
Can’t you give me some last affection?
So coldly

It hurts, it hurts
It huts so much, that even though I call your name
No, no more, your love isn’t me anymore

The people walking past ask me
They ask me if I’m okay, I’m pathetic
The wind digging in my flesh is cold
However, I wait, I can’t just go like this
If by chance you are with someone new now
You are a really bad guy, say it isn’t like that

It hurts, it hurts
It huts so much, that even though I call your name
No, no more, your love isn’t me anymore

The closed door opens and with a cold face
You push me away, and seeing this
The tears I had held until the end pour out
I’m sorry, I shouldn’t be like this

No, no, I didn’t come here to do this
Come back, come back,
I ended up begging sadly like this
I love you, I love you
Even though you left me, I love you
Embrace me, just one last time

No, no, I didn’t come just to do this
come back, come back
I end up begging sadly like this
I love you, I love you
Even though you left me, I love you

Embrace me, just one last time

If Only...

If only I could predict the future, life would be a breeze for me

If only life had an un-do button, then I could un-do all my mistakes.

If only life has a rewind button, I would rewind to the first time when I did something stupid to correct it

If only life has a reset button, then I will be able to reset my life and start from the beginning again.

If only life has a pause button, I'll then be able to pause and take a breather in life.

If only I was smarter

If only I was less reckless

If only...

If only I was granted superpowers.

If only I could do things that I want

If only life could go the way I want it to

If only...

If only ...

If only...

So much I want to achieve but so little of me. I feel small and useless now

What do I do now? How do I proceed from here?

Made a wrong turn, once or twice.
Dug my way out, blood and fire.
Bad decisions, that's alright.
Welcome to my silly life.
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood.
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down.
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated.
Look i'm still around.

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel.
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect.
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel, like you're nothing.
You're fuckin' perfect to me!

You're so mean, when you talk, about yourself you were wrong.
Change the voices, in your head, make them like you instead.
So complicated, look happy, you'll make it!
Filled with so much hatred, such a tired game.
It's enough! I've done all I can think of.
Chased down all my demons, i've seen you do the same.

Woah ohh, pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel.
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect.
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel, like you're nothing.
You're fuckin' perfect to me.

The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear.
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer.
So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time.
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere.
They dont like my jeans, they don't get my hair.
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time.
Why do we do that? Why do I do that?

Why do I do that?

Yeah, oh, oh baby, pretty baby!
Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel.
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect.
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel.
Like you're nothing, you're fuckin' perfect to me yeahhh.
You're perfect, you're perfect!
Ohh pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel.
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect.
Pretty please, if you ever ever feel, like you're nothing.
You are perfect to me...

If...

If...what does it mean to me? To me, it means the possibility of a second option that I could have chosen in the past.

Here's a song with the same title

don't know the exact lyrics but this is english subbed so can just read the subtitles

Scars

Some scars can be removed. Some scars can just heal and disappear, never to be seen again. Some scars can just hide by themselves under the camouflage of the skin.

Some scars however can never be removed. D: They remain there throughout your life. Just like the one I have on my arm now.

The more i look at it,the more I think about my stupidity and my recklessness. :/ The more i look at it, the more I want to chop my arm off!!!!

That scar will remain there all my life. Serving as a reminder to my stupidity! Serving as a reminder of the appearance of you in my life. Serving as a reminder of my life being cursed and ruined by you.

Sigh....will I ever move out of this period? Or will I forever remain stuck in this crap?

Wrong move led me to this stage where no amount of right moves can ever bring me back to the guy I used to be in secondary school.

The past is history, which is also where we learn from our mistakes. But the past also involves memories that I don't ever want to remember at all D: The future looks bleak but I shall hang on!

I don't know where I'll go from here on but I hope that there will always be someone there to guide me. Which I truly know there will be.

For the people that I really care about, I will persevere and pull through. Hopefully, emerging as a stronger person, a more resilient person, not easily overcome by emotions and recklessness.

The journey will be tough but I will pull through because of the people around me, the people who are there to support me.

Here's a song to remind myself of happier times that I have with my friends :) Even though it sounds sad.

I didn’t believe in love until today
That must be a reason for me being more alert today
You’re the best at hiding your feelings
I didn’t even know you were in pain
I feel like my heart will explode
And my tears keep on falling
I want to see you, I think I’m goin to die

You’re the best in my life
Of all the people I know
For not being able to see this person,
I must have been crazy
I didn’t even know how I felt
I can’t live if you’re not near me
I know now how important you are
You’re the best in my life

Although there’s nothing that I did for you willingly
You didn’t leave when I threw you away
You have a great personality
And a great temper
You loved me without lying
The more I see you, the more I value you
I’m so stupid to throw you away, now I miss you

You’re the best in my life
Of all the people I know
For not being able to see this person,
I must have been crazy
I didn’t even know how I felt
I can’t live if you’re not near me
I know now how important you are
You’re the best in my life

I know I’m not the best person
Although I told you never to come back
If you give me one more chance, I can do better
Can you believe me and come back

You’re the best in my life
Of all the people I know
For not being able to see this person,
I must have been crazy
I didn’t even know how I felt
I can’t live if you’re not near me
I know now how important you are
You’re the best in my life

You’re the best in my life

Of all the people I know
For not being able to see this person,
I must have been crazy
I didn’t even know how I felt
I can’t live if you’re not near me
I know now how important you are
You’re the best in my life

Pretty Pretty ^^

Dal shabet's new song!!! Pink Rocket ^^v



Still can't get over Rainbow's To Me D:

mind is freaking messy now!!!

really tired D:

hope i can stay alive during this tough period :)

I HOPE PEOPLE WILL UNDERSTAND OTHERS BETTER AND STOP THINKING THAT THEY ARE THE ONLY ONES WHO ARE RIGHT!!!! I KNOW I COMMIT THIS TOO BUT AT LEAST I HAVE THE COURAGE AND GUTS TO APOLOGIZE AFTER THE MATTER!!!

QUIT BEING SO ANAL!!!! >:/

To Me

Rainbow's new song!!! totally love the piano in the background and the starting of the chorus!!!

anyways, life will be more hectic with SYFs and concert approaching fast hahah

hope i will survive!!!!

muz jiayou!!!

Run Devil Run Japanese

awesome way to cheer me up!!!

NOT FORGETTING BEETHOVEN 9TH LATER AT 10 ON OKTO!!!!! ^^v

Broken

what else can i say? D':
waste of time, waste of effort waste of everything

nevermind, at least now i have more free time
and i can go do stuff that i want to do

but still there is this void in me that i can't seem to fill
wonder who or what can fill it

it's just too tiring putting on a mask already
time to take it off, time to show my true self
time to make an effort and take things into my own hands
time to stop being mr nice guy already!!!

Thinking...

Eli -- yo listen up my tragic story this is just to break in my heart

Hoon -- I still can't erase you
Keep reminds me of the mushrooming.
Want to see you too
U-Kiss -- all night can't sleep well
Hoon -- my heart pounding rain sound window
You leave that place
As Miss so much
U-Kiss -- all night long sigh I can't well

AJ -- comb your way out of the way a passing gaze/anything can't I reiterate
And every day I also regret and sorry/I want you to pray to be back
I can ' t can't withstand/Gets a day without putting eye tears flowing I
Again I could forget you/when I do this

Soo Hyun -- I still can't erase you
Keep reminds me of the mushrooming.
Want to see you too
U-Kiss -- all night can't sleep well
Soo Hyun -- my heart pounding rain sound window
You leave that place
As Miss so much
U-Kiss -- all night long sigh I can't well

Ki-Seop -- Oh dear, even Her even tonight tonight

Eli -- all night if you think I can't well/why did i turn on this love show
You and I got the sign away/I love was the servant
Why did we fight we're saying why this
Did you lose the sight we love was
Why do I have to stop this at the moment all I need is a moron're

Dong Ho -- shoulder axis nearby only you/sigh that land turns off break you
Stuffy chest beating only bath bath you/crossed to pray to the sky is yours
I seen I'd imagine/we erase characters, let's not forget the bad memories are everything
(I m sorry ') you know what it would be like saying the bottom/sorry can only or

Kevin -- I still can't erase you
Keep reminds me of the mushrooming.
Want to see you too
U-Kiss -- all night can't sleep well
Kevin -- my heart pounding rain sound window
You leave that place
As Miss so much
U-Kiss -- all night long sigh I can't well

Kevin -- Oh dear, even Her even tonight tonight

Eli, AJ, suggesting a -- Y & I don't let our lanyard/don ' t deny our π r ²
For me, and now everything is fine/back to back it all up I'm going to start

U-Kiss -- all night can't sleep well

lyrics might not be exactly the same but meaning still there hahah

totally describing how i feel D: haiz...

Lies

[Spoken]
Yeah, love is pain.
Dedicated to all my broken-hearted people.
One's old flame. Just scream my name.
And I'm so sick of love songs.
Yeah, I hate them damn love songs.
Mementos of ours.

[Verse One]
Late night, you come with the falling rain my mind begins to stir with the wet memories.
Even if I swear to myself I can live without you.
But I can't help it.
I fill my heart with alchohol, but I still feel empty.
They days without you feel so long.
I beg heaven to please erase you.
(It's all a lie.)
Without you I can't smile, tears don't even form.
I don't want to live anymore.
It's wrong, it pisses me off.
I feel like I'm going crazy thinking about you.
I can't see you even if I want to.
It's over, I'll be right there.

[Chorus]
I'm so sorry, but I love you.
It's a lie.
I didn't know, I know now that I need you.
I'm so sorry but I love you.
I said things out of anger and without me knowing I had to let you leave.
I'm so sorry, but I love you.
It's all a lie.
I'm so sorry, but I love you.
[I love you more, more.]
I'm so sorry, but I love you.
Can I forget it all slowly?
So I can be hurt.

[Verse Two]
The song I put my everything into and sung for you.
[People probably don't know.]
Alone, without anyone knowing.
Yeah, the lies I made.
I've been left alone, keep roaming with the loneliness.
The note for separation crumbled in my pocket.
Where are you?
The habit of calling you.
I want to change.
I want to laugh everything over.

[Chorus]
I'm so sorry, but I love you.
It's all a lie.
I didn't know, I know now that I need you.
I'm so sorry, but I love you.
I said things out of anger and without me knowing you had let you leave.
I'm so sorry, but I love you.
It's all a lie.
I'm so sorry, but I love you.
[I love you more, more.]
I'm so sorry, but I love you.
Can I forget you slowly?
So I can be hurt.

[Bridge]
Hope everything's a dream.
For being able to do only this.
I still can't forget you.
No, even eventually, even after death.
Has the scar I gave you healed?
I'm sorry for not being able to anything for you.

[Chorus]
I'm so sorry, but I love you.
It's all a lie.
I didn't know, I know now that I need you.
I'm so sorry, but I love you.
I said things out of anger and without me knowing I had let you leave.
I'm so sorry, but I love you.
It's all I lie.
I'm so sorry, but I love you.
[I love you more, more.]
I'm so sorry, but I love you.
Can I forget it all slowly?
So it can hurt.
(Bye, bye)

dont know what else to say already ><

Death

went to pray my ah gongs and ah ma today >< then went for double bass lesson was late D:

anyways, had lunch with my cousins and uncles and aunt :) had my favourite chicken rice at bishan!!!!!!

hahah that was the good!

then came home, the small bird outside my house died!!!!

damn poor thing, its foot got caught in the cotton wool used to make the nest. it got tangles and juz died D: damn sad!!!! then we push it back into the nest hoping that the parent will come back and do something

its mummy came back and you know what it did?!?!?!? it juz threw the chick out of the nest and onto the floor D: damn sad and bad D:

anyways, my mum decided to juz bury it, so we did that

it damn sad how being stuck can cause death. it also goes to show how fragile and unpredictable life can be D: hope the people in japan stay strong and fight on!!!! GANBETTE!!!! HWAITING!!!!

i shall now go reflect on the fragility and unpredictability of life

life's a pile of shit since i'm a failure

kk exam results are coming back one by one

got math, bio, chem back already D: failed all three

think i'm going to fail the rest too D:

then i'll most probably get superb grades like SSSSS or even SSSSU

hahahah i think it's funny how my grades just keep dropping and dropping

it's like i study but still no improvements

think im studying the wrongn way, so im gonna cut down on lots of stuff

dad's gonna return cable box,so cut dowon on korean variety shows alr

then busy everyday so cut down on facebook, twitter and blogging alr

not to mention cca and lessons, so my life will basically revolve around school and cca that's all

hope this will help me to concentrate and study better

shall find time to find ways to keep my stress level and sanity at optimal level :)

lost...

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most
I'm forever keeping my angel close

totally lost in everything now!!! feel like my past memories are coming back to haunt me again D: totally confused and lost

putting up a fake front will sure be tiring but i think thats the best that i should do now

emo again

hi guys!!!

CO camp's over, concert just finished yesterday!!!

new concert coming up soon D: shall practice hard!

anyways, im currently hooked on the opening of love the way you lie part 2

here it is

[Rihanna]
On the first page of our story
the future seemed so bright
then this thing turned out so evil
I don't know why I'm still surprised
even angels have their wicked schemes
and you take that to new extremes
but you'll always be my hero
even though you've lost your mind

[Chorus]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
but that's all right because I like the way it hurts
just gonna stand there and hear me cry
but that's all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Ohhh, I love the way you lie

[Rihanna]
Now there's gravel in our voices
glass is shattered from the fight
in this tug of war, you'll always win
even when I'm right
'cause you feed me fables from your hand
with violent words and empty threats
and it's sick that all these battles
are what keeps me satisfied

[Chorus]

[Rihanna]
So maybe I'm a masochist
I try to run but I don't wanna ever leave
til the walls are goin' up
in smoke with all our memories

[Eminem]
This morning, you wake, a sunray hits your face
smeared makeup as we lay in the wake of destruction
hush baby, speak softly, tell me I'll be sorry
that you pushed me into the coffee table last night
so I can push you off me
try and touch me so I can scream at you not to touch me
run out the room and I'll follow you like a lost puppy
baby, without you, I'm nothing, I'm so lost, hug me
then tell me how ugly I am, but that you'll always love me
then after that, shove me, in the aftermath of the
destructive path that we're on, two psychopaths but we
know that no matter how many knives we put in each other's backs
that we'll have each other's backs, 'cause we're that lucky
together, we move mountains, let's not make mountains out of molehills,
you hit me twice, yeah, but who's countin'?
I may have hit you three times, I'm startin' to lose count
but together, we'll live forever, we found the youth fountain
our love is crazy, we're nuts, but I refused counsellin'
this house is too huge, if you move out I'll burn all two thousand
square feet of it to the ground, ain't shit you can do about it
with you I'm in my f-ckin' mind, without you, I'm out it

[Chorus]

totally hooked!!

anyway changes in habits coming soon, going to become a pessimist soon!

hope that the people that i hope can help me will help me and not actually make me suffer!

i tink you guys know who you are!! two people have been added to the list but that are not as important as the others yt, will see how it goes on due course :)

MY 111TH POST!!!!!!

So today's the first day of holidays (WHAT HOLIDAYS?!?!?!??!!?)

firstly my timetable is freaking packed!!!

YO rehearsals and concert

e-assessments and homework

NOT FORGETING THE EVER AWESOME CO CAMPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOHOO!!!!!

cant wait for it to come!!!! 2 more days!!!!! >< hahaha

hope i make many many new frens and also have fun!!!!!! ^^

that aside, i shall have an ulterior motive!!!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~ -EBIL LAUGHTER-

kk gtg and prepare to go out alr D: yo rehearsal tonight!!!