Time Again

Superman!!!

Sometime I wish I were him...indestructible, so strong, so trustworthy. :/

But I guess it's just not meant to be...

I still a weakling living in this heartless world, trying to lie to myself :/



As usual...new kpop group with pwetty gurls!!!

Tia from Chocolat...the girl that appears the most in the mv ^^ hahah :D PRETTY RIGHT?!?!?!?

anyway...acting up again :/

Emo me...forever emo :/

trying hard to keep my happy self shone...

hope it works well:/

here's some ageyo from myy pretty dear (deer) YoonA ^^v



YoonA's SOOOOOOOOO CUTEEEEEEEEE AND PRETTYYYYYYY!!!!!!!! v^^v

Records

I might look dumb and do dumb actions and say stupid things, but do not and i mean do not ever ever belittle me :/

anyway, i've decided that i'm gonna keep records on who i tell my secrets and my passwords to... it's written somewhere

anyway, i'm feeling like a fool hahah :/

guess u kno abotu it alr >< since u've been acting strangely :/ oh well...

i'm just a fool...easily taken advantage of... easily cheated...easily lied to...

i sometimes feel lik tissue, use and throw one side...need me again, then come and take me and use...then throw one side...

i guess that's just my life...

i should take this long break to calm myself down, clear my mind and start all over again :/ mayb that will help ^^

i hope i'm still the optimist that someone told me i should be ^^

Suddenly...

I couldn’t come up with any words.
I really did not know I’d see you again.
Somewhere buried deep inside my heart.
I have longed and ached for you.

When I turn around I see the smiling face.
The face that is always there, behind me.
This dizzy feeling keeps me up at night.
Traces of you keep me crying again.

Tell me now, how was I wrong?
Tell me now, was I lacking?

I really desired you like crazy.
I always prayed that I could see you again.
I feel as though I will die like this.
Can’t you be the one coming to me now.
Please.

I told myself I’d be fine alone.
That I could do well without you.
I tell myself this as I try to force myself to sleep.
But all I can think of are the way you speak and look.

Tell me now, how was I wrong?
Tell me now, was I lacking?

I really desired you like crazy.
I always prayed that I could see you again.
I feel as though I will die like this.
Can’t you be the one coming to me now?

I really desired you like crazy.
I always prayed that I could see you again.
I feel as though I will die like this.
Can’t you be the one coming to me now?
Please.
Please.


I wonder what's wrong with me :/
oh well...give myself some time to sort out...
talked to someone today on the way home, made me think about what i should do

Lost again....

told ms tee that i'm lost, and she told me to just focus on getting good grades then worry about the future...

i guess she's right, i should just focus on A levels first...

had talk about ct2 results...just what?! i dropped!!!!! now bottom 5% of cohort. D; it sucks...

ms chen did a good job at motivating us before telling us that we might not be able to do it :/ seriously -.-

anyway, i got the simple message that is... I SUCK!!!! :/ period D:

Emo again :/

I don't know what's wrong with me these days.

Been feeling especially high towards the end of the day...sign that i'm tired already...

I don't know what's wrong but I keep telling people stuff that I swore to keep to myself. Can't I ever keep my mouth shut?! :/

been talking less to my friends already...it seems like I'm distancing myself from lots of people. but that's just life right? like 'cause everyone's mugging so i shouldn't disturb them right? like how people deserve personal space. :/

I think it's time I start thinking about what I seriously want in life...

Clearly it's not a girlfriend and stuff...

I guess I just want to be acknowledged? or maybe just want a little love?

People always to give and not expect much...I think I've been doing too much already...it's taking its toll D: I seriously don't know what I can do now...

The future seems uncertain for me again...people go through this phase once in their life...

I've been through it once last year...today same time, one year on, I'm going through it again T_T

I feel lost, I feel lonely, I feel deprived, I feel I've let people down, I feel sad...

Maybe I really need some time off from everything...like just take a break from everything, give myself time to think...but i guess i can't do that...i've got no time :/

it's now less than 100 days to A levels and I'm not even a quarter done with revision...

TIME TO BUCK UP :/

I need motivation...I need people to keep me in check...

most importantly, i need to stop thoughts from getting to my heart and mind :/