Death

went to pray my ah gongs and ah ma today >< then went for double bass lesson was late D:

anyways, had lunch with my cousins and uncles and aunt :) had my favourite chicken rice at bishan!!!!!!

hahah that was the good!

then came home, the small bird outside my house died!!!!

damn poor thing, its foot got caught in the cotton wool used to make the nest. it got tangles and juz died D: damn sad!!!! then we push it back into the nest hoping that the parent will come back and do something

its mummy came back and you know what it did?!?!?!? it juz threw the chick out of the nest and onto the floor D: damn sad and bad D:

anyways, my mum decided to juz bury it, so we did that

it damn sad how being stuck can cause death. it also goes to show how fragile and unpredictable life can be D: hope the people in japan stay strong and fight on!!!! GANBETTE!!!! HWAITING!!!!

i shall now go reflect on the fragility and unpredictability of life

life's a pile of shit since i'm a failure

kk exam results are coming back one by one

got math, bio, chem back already D: failed all three

think i'm going to fail the rest too D:

then i'll most probably get superb grades like SSSSS or even SSSSU

hahahah i think it's funny how my grades just keep dropping and dropping

it's like i study but still no improvements

think im studying the wrongn way, so im gonna cut down on lots of stuff

dad's gonna return cable box,so cut dowon on korean variety shows alr

then busy everyday so cut down on facebook, twitter and blogging alr

not to mention cca and lessons, so my life will basically revolve around school and cca that's all

hope this will help me to concentrate and study better

shall find time to find ways to keep my stress level and sanity at optimal level :)

lost...

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most
I'm forever keeping my angel close

totally lost in everything now!!! feel like my past memories are coming back to haunt me again D: totally confused and lost

putting up a fake front will sure be tiring but i think thats the best that i should do now

emo again

hi guys!!!

CO camp's over, concert just finished yesterday!!!

new concert coming up soon D: shall practice hard!

anyways, im currently hooked on the opening of love the way you lie part 2

here it is

[Rihanna]
On the first page of our story
the future seemed so bright
then this thing turned out so evil
I don't know why I'm still surprised
even angels have their wicked schemes
and you take that to new extremes
but you'll always be my hero
even though you've lost your mind

[Chorus]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
but that's all right because I like the way it hurts
just gonna stand there and hear me cry
but that's all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Ohhh, I love the way you lie

[Rihanna]
Now there's gravel in our voices
glass is shattered from the fight
in this tug of war, you'll always win
even when I'm right
'cause you feed me fables from your hand
with violent words and empty threats
and it's sick that all these battles
are what keeps me satisfied

[Chorus]

[Rihanna]
So maybe I'm a masochist
I try to run but I don't wanna ever leave
til the walls are goin' up
in smoke with all our memories

[Eminem]
This morning, you wake, a sunray hits your face
smeared makeup as we lay in the wake of destruction
hush baby, speak softly, tell me I'll be sorry
that you pushed me into the coffee table last night
so I can push you off me
try and touch me so I can scream at you not to touch me
run out the room and I'll follow you like a lost puppy
baby, without you, I'm nothing, I'm so lost, hug me
then tell me how ugly I am, but that you'll always love me
then after that, shove me, in the aftermath of the
destructive path that we're on, two psychopaths but we
know that no matter how many knives we put in each other's backs
that we'll have each other's backs, 'cause we're that lucky
together, we move mountains, let's not make mountains out of molehills,
you hit me twice, yeah, but who's countin'?
I may have hit you three times, I'm startin' to lose count
but together, we'll live forever, we found the youth fountain
our love is crazy, we're nuts, but I refused counsellin'
this house is too huge, if you move out I'll burn all two thousand
square feet of it to the ground, ain't shit you can do about it
with you I'm in my f-ckin' mind, without you, I'm out it

[Chorus]

totally hooked!!

anyway changes in habits coming soon, going to become a pessimist soon!

hope that the people that i hope can help me will help me and not actually make me suffer!

i tink you guys know who you are!! two people have been added to the list but that are not as important as the others yt, will see how it goes on due course :)

MY 111TH POST!!!!!!

So today's the first day of holidays (WHAT HOLIDAYS?!?!?!??!!?)

firstly my timetable is freaking packed!!!

YO rehearsals and concert

e-assessments and homework

NOT FORGETING THE EVER AWESOME CO CAMPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOHOO!!!!!

cant wait for it to come!!!! 2 more days!!!!! >< hahaha

hope i make many many new frens and also have fun!!!!!! ^^

that aside, i shall have an ulterior motive!!!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~ -EBIL LAUGHTER-

kk gtg and prepare to go out alr D: yo rehearsal tonight!!!

ASS

its about time i start to tell the world about my irritating and idiotic brother!!!

he's a complete irresponsible lazy person!!!!

he totally can leave something disgusting lik cut nails on the table for days and not clear it away!!!!

and he fricking gets on my nerves with his lazy irresponsible antics!!!!!!

not to mention that he totally only cares for himself and not for others!!!!!

his exam he study until very late, ppl have to help him do stuff, parents dun disturb him

MY EXAM LEH???!?!?!?!?! HE DOESNT CARE AND DUN EVEN BOTHER TO HELP ME DO THINGS!!!!! JUST SIT THERE AND WATCH TV LIKE A FRICKING PRINCE I MEAN PIECE OF SHIT!!!!

YOU KNOW WHAT!!!!! IF I FAIL CTS I DUN GIV A SHIT ALR!!!!!

srsly you SUCK big time!!!!!

irresponsible idiotic irritating lazy brother!!!!! (IIILB)

signing off, pissed person D:

Hooked on Emo Songs :)

I'm feeling distracted
And likewise attracted
To all the things that you let me know
To all the things that you can't let go

You're waiting for friction
The empty addiction
Is forcing me to intervene
Let's break out of this scene

I know I'm not alone
I'm not the only one who is broken
And I know I'll never let you go
I could watch the world pass by
Just as long as it's you and I

You and I
I watch you take over
I'll give you this offer
Take my hand and we will run away
Leave behind our past to stay
Decaying till its rotten
We'll have long forgotten
The memories that will haunt your heart

Let's tear this town apart
I know I'm not alone
I'm not the only one who is broken
And I know I'll never let you go
I could watch the world pass by
Just as long as it's you and I
You and I

We watched the world go by
(But if it's you and I)
Then we will never die
(No we can never die)
We watch the world go by
But if it's you and I
Then we will never die

I know I'm not alone
I'm not the only one who is broken
And I know I'll never let you go
I could watch the world pass by
Just as long as it's you and I
You and I
I know I'm not alone
I'm not the only one who is broken
And I know I'll never let you go
I could watch the world pass by
Just as long as it's you and I
You and I...


I think this song is pretty good!!!!
Totally love the songs by secondhand serenade ^^
sadly these songs make me think about sad stuff
nevertheless, only by listening to these can I then cheer up :)

If only life wasn't filled with
Monday blues
Sucky moments
Backstabbing
Pissing people off
Irresponsibility

feeling damn tired now!
just gonna leave one day as it comes
felling super super pressured by her D:
but oh well,
there's always someone there to cheer me up ^^

Where'd You Go?

i kno this song is kinda old but still...

Where'd you go? I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever
That you've been gone

She said, some days I feel like sh**
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit
I don't understand why you have to always be gone
I get along, but the trips always feel so long, and

I find myself tryin' to stay by the phone
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call
But when I pick up I don't have much to say, so

I want you to know it's a little f***ed up
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin'
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing

Where'd you go? I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go? I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone
Please come back home

You know the place where you used to live?
Used to barbeque up burgers and ribs
Used to have a little party every halloween with candy by the pile
But now, you only stop by every once in a while

Yeah, I find myself just fillin' my time
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind
I'm doin' fine, and I'm plannin' to keep it that way
You can call me if you find that you have somethin' to say

And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little f***ed up
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin'
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing

Where'd you go? I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go? I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone
Please come back home

I want you to know it's a little messed up
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin'
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses
For why you're not around, and feeling so useless

It seems one thing has been true all along
You don't really know what you got 'til it's gone
I guess I've had it with you and your career
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it

Where'd you go? I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go? I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone
Please come back home

Please come back home
Please come back home
Please come back home
Please come back home

been feeling out-of-sorts recently
dont kno how to explain but i just hope that i get better
monday blues are especially bad this year D:
not only that korean seems to not be helping me feel good

but oh well thankful that i have friends who are here for me
especially jas who never fails to make me smile thanks to her funny ways
and also xuan ming who is always here to hear my problems and stuff

hope i can get better soon D: being emo kills me

TIred and Bad Luck

Haiz!!!!!

Chem tutorial damn bad luck lar!!! she had to go check ppl work then very lucky lor!!! i'm the 1st one she check, then coz i demn tired onli do a bit, she say incomplete, then write my name down!!! AND GUESS WHAT!!!! SHE STOPPED CHECKING AFTER ME!!!!! MEANS IMA THE ONI ONE WHO GT CHECKED!!!!!! AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FREAK LAR!!!!

anyways, life seems to be taking a toll on me, feeling super duper tired lately!!! not even kpop keeps me awake D:

feel like dying already ):

Happy and Sad

CHinese New Year is a freaking happy time for me...

WHY? COZ I GET TO MEET MY COUSINS!!!!! hahaha :D its freaking fun when we juz crack jokes and talk and laugh ^^

anyways, the happy mood was ruined by a DAMN STUPID THING!!!!

lessons started today, then was ok during pe. then came chem AHHHHH!!!!!! i still damn pissed >:| AAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

whole class kena scolded but then was pissed coz felt lik she was targetting me like i was the onoi one who did wrong!!!!! DUN EVEN GIVE SECOND CHANCE!!!!

HEARD OF THE YELLOW REBBON PROJECT?!?!?!?!?! give a second chance ass!

haiz...totally ruined my day till now!!!!!!! still nt happy yt...

on a side note, was watching tv ytd and saw this!



DAMN HOT RIGHT ^^ HAHAHAHA :D WOOHOO~~~~ ^^