Struggling...

How can I just let you walk away

Just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking
Every breath with you oohhhh
You're the only one
Who really knew me at all

How can you just walk away from me
When all I can do is watch you leave
'Cause we've shared the laughter and the pain
And even shared the tears
You're the only one
Who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now
'Cause there's just an empty space
There's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
So take a look at me now
'Cause there's just an empty space
And you coming back to me, is against the odds
And that's what I've got to faceeeee

I wish I could just make you turn around
Turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why
You're the only one
Who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now
'Cause there's just an empty space
There's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
So Take a look at me now
Cause there's just an empty space
But to wait for you is
All I can do
And that's what I've got to face.
Take a good look at me now
'Cause l'll still be standing (standing here)
And you coming back to me is against all odds
That's the chance I've got to take
(chance I got to take, got to takeeee)

Yeahhhhh
Take A look at me now
(Take A Look at me nowwwww)

Hurt

Don’t worry, I won’t cry again
Now I don’t want it either, I don’t want to love
Are you just going to leave me like this?
Can’t you give me some last affection?
So coldly

It hurts, it hurts
It huts so much, that even though I call your name
No, no more, your love isn’t me anymore

The people walking past ask me
They ask me if I’m okay, I’m pathetic
The wind digging in my flesh is cold
However, I wait, I can’t just go like this
If by chance you are with someone new now
You are a really bad guy, say it isn’t like that

It hurts, it hurts
It huts so much, that even though I call your name
No, no more, your love isn’t me anymore

The closed door opens and with a cold face
You push me away, and seeing this
The tears I had held until the end pour out
I’m sorry, I shouldn’t be like this

No, no, I didn’t come here to do this
Come back, come back,
I ended up begging sadly like this
I love you, I love you
Even though you left me, I love you
Embrace me, just one last time

No, no, I didn’t come just to do this
come back, come back
I end up begging sadly like this
I love you, I love you
Even though you left me, I love you

Embrace me, just one last time

If Only...

If only I could predict the future, life would be a breeze for me

If only life had an un-do button, then I could un-do all my mistakes.

If only life has a rewind button, I would rewind to the first time when I did something stupid to correct it

If only life has a reset button, then I will be able to reset my life and start from the beginning again.

If only life has a pause button, I'll then be able to pause and take a breather in life.

If only I was smarter

If only I was less reckless

If only...

If only I was granted superpowers.

If only I could do things that I want

If only life could go the way I want it to

If only...

If only ...

If only...

So much I want to achieve but so little of me. I feel small and useless now

What do I do now? How do I proceed from here?

Made a wrong turn, once or twice.
Dug my way out, blood and fire.
Bad decisions, that's alright.
Welcome to my silly life.
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood.
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down.
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated.
Look i'm still around.

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel.
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect.
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel, like you're nothing.
You're fuckin' perfect to me!

You're so mean, when you talk, about yourself you were wrong.
Change the voices, in your head, make them like you instead.
So complicated, look happy, you'll make it!
Filled with so much hatred, such a tired game.
It's enough! I've done all I can think of.
Chased down all my demons, i've seen you do the same.

Woah ohh, pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel.
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect.
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel, like you're nothing.
You're fuckin' perfect to me.

The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear.
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer.
So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time.
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere.
They dont like my jeans, they don't get my hair.
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time.
Why do we do that? Why do I do that?

Why do I do that?

Yeah, oh, oh baby, pretty baby!
Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel.
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect.
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel.
Like you're nothing, you're fuckin' perfect to me yeahhh.
You're perfect, you're perfect!
Ohh pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel.
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect.
Pretty please, if you ever ever feel, like you're nothing.
You are perfect to me...

If...

If...what does it mean to me? To me, it means the possibility of a second option that I could have chosen in the past.

Here's a song with the same title

don't know the exact lyrics but this is english subbed so can just read the subtitles

Scars

Some scars can be removed. Some scars can just heal and disappear, never to be seen again. Some scars can just hide by themselves under the camouflage of the skin.

Some scars however can never be removed. D: They remain there throughout your life. Just like the one I have on my arm now.

The more i look at it,the more I think about my stupidity and my recklessness. :/ The more i look at it, the more I want to chop my arm off!!!!

That scar will remain there all my life. Serving as a reminder to my stupidity! Serving as a reminder of the appearance of you in my life. Serving as a reminder of my life being cursed and ruined by you.

Sigh....will I ever move out of this period? Or will I forever remain stuck in this crap?

Wrong move led me to this stage where no amount of right moves can ever bring me back to the guy I used to be in secondary school.

The past is history, which is also where we learn from our mistakes. But the past also involves memories that I don't ever want to remember at all D: The future looks bleak but I shall hang on!

I don't know where I'll go from here on but I hope that there will always be someone there to guide me. Which I truly know there will be.

For the people that I really care about, I will persevere and pull through. Hopefully, emerging as a stronger person, a more resilient person, not easily overcome by emotions and recklessness.

The journey will be tough but I will pull through because of the people around me, the people who are there to support me.

Here's a song to remind myself of happier times that I have with my friends :) Even though it sounds sad.

I didn’t believe in love until today
That must be a reason for me being more alert today
You’re the best at hiding your feelings
I didn’t even know you were in pain
I feel like my heart will explode
And my tears keep on falling
I want to see you, I think I’m goin to die

You’re the best in my life
Of all the people I know
For not being able to see this person,
I must have been crazy
I didn’t even know how I felt
I can’t live if you’re not near me
I know now how important you are
You’re the best in my life

Although there’s nothing that I did for you willingly
You didn’t leave when I threw you away
You have a great personality
And a great temper
You loved me without lying
The more I see you, the more I value you
I’m so stupid to throw you away, now I miss you

You’re the best in my life
Of all the people I know
For not being able to see this person,
I must have been crazy
I didn’t even know how I felt
I can’t live if you’re not near me
I know now how important you are
You’re the best in my life

I know I’m not the best person
Although I told you never to come back
If you give me one more chance, I can do better
Can you believe me and come back

You’re the best in my life
Of all the people I know
For not being able to see this person,
I must have been crazy
I didn’t even know how I felt
I can’t live if you’re not near me
I know now how important you are
You’re the best in my life

You’re the best in my life

Of all the people I know
For not being able to see this person,
I must have been crazy
I didn’t even know how I felt
I can’t live if you’re not near me
I know now how important you are
You’re the best in my life

Pretty Pretty ^^

Dal shabet's new song!!! Pink Rocket ^^v



Still can't get over Rainbow's To Me D:

mind is freaking messy now!!!

really tired D:

hope i can stay alive during this tough period :)

I HOPE PEOPLE WILL UNDERSTAND OTHERS BETTER AND STOP THINKING THAT THEY ARE THE ONLY ONES WHO ARE RIGHT!!!! I KNOW I COMMIT THIS TOO BUT AT LEAST I HAVE THE COURAGE AND GUTS TO APOLOGIZE AFTER THE MATTER!!!

QUIT BEING SO ANAL!!!! >:/

To Me

Rainbow's new song!!! totally love the piano in the background and the starting of the chorus!!!

anyways, life will be more hectic with SYFs and concert approaching fast hahah

hope i will survive!!!!

muz jiayou!!!

Run Devil Run Japanese

awesome way to cheer me up!!!

NOT FORGETTING BEETHOVEN 9TH LATER AT 10 ON OKTO!!!!! ^^v

Broken

what else can i say? D':
waste of time, waste of effort waste of everything

nevermind, at least now i have more free time
and i can go do stuff that i want to do

but still there is this void in me that i can't seem to fill
wonder who or what can fill it

it's just too tiring putting on a mask already
time to take it off, time to show my true self
time to make an effort and take things into my own hands
time to stop being mr nice guy already!!!

Thinking...

Eli -- yo listen up my tragic story this is just to break in my heart

Hoon -- I still can't erase you
Keep reminds me of the mushrooming.
Want to see you too
U-Kiss -- all night can't sleep well
Hoon -- my heart pounding rain sound window
You leave that place
As Miss so much
U-Kiss -- all night long sigh I can't well

AJ -- comb your way out of the way a passing gaze/anything can't I reiterate
And every day I also regret and sorry/I want you to pray to be back
I can ' t can't withstand/Gets a day without putting eye tears flowing I
Again I could forget you/when I do this

Soo Hyun -- I still can't erase you
Keep reminds me of the mushrooming.
Want to see you too
U-Kiss -- all night can't sleep well
Soo Hyun -- my heart pounding rain sound window
You leave that place
As Miss so much
U-Kiss -- all night long sigh I can't well

Ki-Seop -- Oh dear, even Her even tonight tonight

Eli -- all night if you think I can't well/why did i turn on this love show
You and I got the sign away/I love was the servant
Why did we fight we're saying why this
Did you lose the sight we love was
Why do I have to stop this at the moment all I need is a moron're

Dong Ho -- shoulder axis nearby only you/sigh that land turns off break you
Stuffy chest beating only bath bath you/crossed to pray to the sky is yours
I seen I'd imagine/we erase characters, let's not forget the bad memories are everything
(I m sorry ') you know what it would be like saying the bottom/sorry can only or

Kevin -- I still can't erase you
Keep reminds me of the mushrooming.
Want to see you too
U-Kiss -- all night can't sleep well
Kevin -- my heart pounding rain sound window
You leave that place
As Miss so much
U-Kiss -- all night long sigh I can't well

Kevin -- Oh dear, even Her even tonight tonight

Eli, AJ, suggesting a -- Y & I don't let our lanyard/don ' t deny our π r ²
For me, and now everything is fine/back to back it all up I'm going to start

U-Kiss -- all night can't sleep well

lyrics might not be exactly the same but meaning still there hahah

totally describing how i feel D: haiz...