Addicted

recently got hooked onto this two songs and gonna keep them playing on replay :/

these two songs means so much after multiple listenings to both the lyrics and the music...

went out with the awesome vjco peeps today for an awesome steamboat buffet :D omnomnomnomnom :D feeling damn full!!!

anyways, i think it's a matter of time before i raged and just explode like a volcano...

everythings on the private :D always love that secret corner ^^

revived :D

deeciding to finally revive the dead blog ><

been years since i blogged.

life has been rather hectic. being an instructor sure is challenging.

wonder what this week will bring ><

To Angel

This is very touching :/ almost cried while watching it D: hope you like it too

I MISS YOU

THE TITLE SAYS IT ALL

Long Time No Post

Hey peeps!!! it's been a long time since i last posted...

Many things have happened since with A Levels And the loss of time and lots of mugging and stuff!!!

Many things that I want to do after my As...

Watch movies, catch up with friends and also to stalk SNSD!!!!! YES!!! they're coming to singapore!!!!

though they will be coming on the 28th i think since they performing for MAMA and then still gt their concert!!!! Confirm spending the two weeks in SG!!! HAHAAHHA :D GONNA FIND YOONA!!!!!

some vids that i thought you would lik since i loveeee them hahahh




This is part 2, after hello

Hello...

We can't break up- It's too early for separation for us
You can't just leave me like this
There's so much that I didn't say yet
Please don't leave me like this

Because it's you, I'm-
Because it was you, I-
I can't go on like this
The reason I live is only you
Please don't leave me

You are my love, my love that I long for
You're the person that used to love me
Now I can't touch you but
Will you long for me as much as I long for you?
The person that I loved crazily, hello hello

Because I loved you, I'm-
Because I really loved you, I'm-
Suffering to the point of death, to the point of death
Can you see me dying and not alive?
Please come back to me

You are my love, my love that I long for
You're the person that used to love me
Now I can't touch you but
Will you long for me as much as I long for you?
The person that I loved crazily

If it was going to end like this
If this is really the end
I want to go back to the time when we didn't know each other
If it's too late, if it's too late
I think I'll finish myself because living is too hard (x2)

Yo, listen up. This is my tragic story. Just to break into my heart. Check it.

Chorus A)

I still can't erase you
Again and again I think of you
I miss you too much
I can't sleep at night
The raindrops are knocking at my heart's window
The place that you've left
I miss it too much
I can't sleep at night

Rap2)

The view of your backside walking through the rainy path/
I can't do anything but stay
Everyday I keep regretting it, I'm sorry/ I pray
I want you to be back
I can't, I can't touch you/ I can't bear the day without you
Can't hold back the tears
again I can't forget you/ Till when will I be
like this

Chorus A)

I still can't erase you
Again and again I think of you
I miss you too much
I can't sleep at night
The raindrops are knocking at my heart's window
The place that you've left
I miss it too much
I can't sleep at night

Chorus B)

Oh tonight again, tonight again her

Rap1)

I'm thinking of you I can't sleep
/ why did I turn on this love show
Your path and mine are far apart/I was the
slave of to this love
Why did we fight why were we like this
Did you lose the sight we were in love
Why am I lost in this time I'm the fool
The one I need is you

Rap3)

Your shoulders are slumped/your sighs
break the ground under you
hitting your frustrated heart/ With two hands together
you start to pray
I understand your feelings/let's forget
the bad memories
(I'm sorry) I know how you feel/ I can't say anything but 'sorry'

Chorus A)

I still can't erase you
Again again I think of you
I miss you too much
I can't sleep at night
The raindrops are knocking at my heart's window
The place that you've left
I miss it too much
I can't sleep at night

Chorus B)

Oh tonight again, tonight again

Hook)

Y&I don't cut our ties/ don't deny our r²π
Come to me it's okay now/ We will restart everything again and again
I can't sleep at night

Chorus A)

I still can't erase you
Again and again I think of you
I miss you too much
I can't sleep at night
The raindrops are knocking at my heart's window
The place that you've left
I miss it too much
I can't sleep at night


Really really love this two songs :/
ESPECIALLY THE FIRST ONE!!!
watching the mv really made me think about how i treat my friends and all :/

farewell assembly's over
remedial programme starts tomorrow...
it's worse than my normal school day :/
hope i can find time to study and relax :/

just hoping that i can remain optimistic just as ms tee said i should be :/

Time Again

Superman!!!

Sometime I wish I were him...indestructible, so strong, so trustworthy. :/

But I guess it's just not meant to be...

I still a weakling living in this heartless world, trying to lie to myself :/



As usual...new kpop group with pwetty gurls!!!

Tia from Chocolat...the girl that appears the most in the mv ^^ hahah :D PRETTY RIGHT?!?!?!?

anyway...acting up again :/

Emo me...forever emo :/

trying hard to keep my happy self shone...

hope it works well:/

here's some ageyo from myy pretty dear (deer) YoonA ^^v



YoonA's SOOOOOOOOO CUTEEEEEEEEE AND PRETTYYYYYYY!!!!!!!! v^^v

Records

I might look dumb and do dumb actions and say stupid things, but do not and i mean do not ever ever belittle me :/

anyway, i've decided that i'm gonna keep records on who i tell my secrets and my passwords to... it's written somewhere

anyway, i'm feeling like a fool hahah :/

guess u kno abotu it alr >< since u've been acting strangely :/ oh well...

i'm just a fool...easily taken advantage of... easily cheated...easily lied to...

i sometimes feel lik tissue, use and throw one side...need me again, then come and take me and use...then throw one side...

i guess that's just my life...

i should take this long break to calm myself down, clear my mind and start all over again :/ mayb that will help ^^

i hope i'm still the optimist that someone told me i should be ^^

Suddenly...

I couldn’t come up with any words.
I really did not know I’d see you again.
Somewhere buried deep inside my heart.
I have longed and ached for you.

When I turn around I see the smiling face.
The face that is always there, behind me.
This dizzy feeling keeps me up at night.
Traces of you keep me crying again.

Tell me now, how was I wrong?
Tell me now, was I lacking?

I really desired you like crazy.
I always prayed that I could see you again.
I feel as though I will die like this.
Can’t you be the one coming to me now.
Please.

I told myself I’d be fine alone.
That I could do well without you.
I tell myself this as I try to force myself to sleep.
But all I can think of are the way you speak and look.

Tell me now, how was I wrong?
Tell me now, was I lacking?

I really desired you like crazy.
I always prayed that I could see you again.
I feel as though I will die like this.
Can’t you be the one coming to me now?

I really desired you like crazy.
I always prayed that I could see you again.
I feel as though I will die like this.
Can’t you be the one coming to me now?
Please.
Please.


I wonder what's wrong with me :/
oh well...give myself some time to sort out...
talked to someone today on the way home, made me think about what i should do

Lost again....

told ms tee that i'm lost, and she told me to just focus on getting good grades then worry about the future...

i guess she's right, i should just focus on A levels first...

had talk about ct2 results...just what?! i dropped!!!!! now bottom 5% of cohort. D; it sucks...

ms chen did a good job at motivating us before telling us that we might not be able to do it :/ seriously -.-

anyway, i got the simple message that is... I SUCK!!!! :/ period D:

Emo again :/

I don't know what's wrong with me these days.

Been feeling especially high towards the end of the day...sign that i'm tired already...

I don't know what's wrong but I keep telling people stuff that I swore to keep to myself. Can't I ever keep my mouth shut?! :/

been talking less to my friends already...it seems like I'm distancing myself from lots of people. but that's just life right? like 'cause everyone's mugging so i shouldn't disturb them right? like how people deserve personal space. :/

I think it's time I start thinking about what I seriously want in life...

Clearly it's not a girlfriend and stuff...

I guess I just want to be acknowledged? or maybe just want a little love?

People always to give and not expect much...I think I've been doing too much already...it's taking its toll D: I seriously don't know what I can do now...

The future seems uncertain for me again...people go through this phase once in their life...

I've been through it once last year...today same time, one year on, I'm going through it again T_T

I feel lost, I feel lonely, I feel deprived, I feel I've let people down, I feel sad...

Maybe I really need some time off from everything...like just take a break from everything, give myself time to think...but i guess i can't do that...i've got no time :/

it's now less than 100 days to A levels and I'm not even a quarter done with revision...

TIME TO BUCK UP :/

I need motivation...I need people to keep me in check...

most importantly, i need to stop thoughts from getting to my heart and mind :/

Touching Songs

Watching Immortal Song II on KBS and saw the Immortal Classic for Boohwal...

The songs are really touching :D





I'm feeling kinda empty and sad :/ i don;t know why...

Maybe it's results, maybe it's just life...

Guess it's the time to pause and think about the future...

Had a weird passing thought about what will happen if both my parents died :/ it;s kind of disturbing but I guess it's true...it might happen one day :/

Guess I'm just tired that's why I have these random thoughts :/

Superstar

tvxqsms by juniorsweet

SNSD ^^

SNSD 4EVA!!! :D



just felt the urge to post these videos ^^ hahahah :D







YOONA <3 <3 <3 <3 <3!!!!!!!! ^^

T-ARA's new song ^^



Miss A's new mv (not the full coz the frnt part was talking)



MBLAQ's new MV

Screwed...

Don't think anyone got lower than me for Chemistry MCQ for CT2s...seriously even if you mark a single choice for all the options, still can get higher than me... (ask me if you want to know the marks)

feeling like a bloody failure now...

failure in life, failure in studies, failure in everything...

I'M A GOOD-FOR-NOTHING!!!!

seriously Gwyn Tan!!!1 WHAT ARE YOU GOOD AT?

playing? sleeping? eating? k-pop?

wonder what you can do now...

-feeling like a failure...what can I do?-

The End

The closing chapter for the CCA that I've spent 6 years in, since primary school...

Today marks the last concert for my SNYO life... in this last is a first, my first outdoor concert... in the first, many more lasts...

After all these years of playing music and getting to know both worlds of music, I have to say goodbye to both of these two worlds already...

It saddens me that the two worlds complemented each other and are where I enjoy playing.

I hope that I'll still get a chance to go back to play, but I guess it's highly unlikely considering that I'm going to NS like next year...

So yup...my final concert with SNYO...

Will really really miss the moments, the jokes, the laughter, and all...

Most importantly, I'm going to miss the people there, my friends :/

With this, I'll keep SNYO memories in my heart, as the chapter comes to an end...

The End and Goodbye

-will really miss SNYO-

Once...

once while living... T_T feeling empty now.... cavity in the feelings :/

Even if I close my eyes, my tears are flowing
I see you, no, I want to see you
I know, everything has already ended
The same space, the same time, the same world, but
Wherever I look, wherever I go, I can't see you
We should meet at least once while living
I'm still living there
Where are you?
No matter what your doing be healthy and always live happily
I'm really thankful that you're alive
The news about you is my reason for living
I know, everything has already ended
A different encounter, a different person, even if it's love, it's ok
Whoever you meet, whatever you do, as long as you're happy, that's enough
We should meet at least once while living
I'm still living there
Where are you?
No matter what your doing be healthy and always live happily
(At least once while living, at least once while living. Still there, still alive)
Once, just once if we meet
For you being born, for meeting you, I'm thankful
Live well...you must be happy

Emo Shit

So today will be my last SNYO concert at the Botanic Gardens :/ it feels kind of sad that after 6 years in YO, I'm going to go on break... Not sure if I'm Coming back..

Anyway, got back CT2 results, as expected, failed bio... Passed math but need go for remedial -.-

Sighzzz.... Looks like I need to put aside everything now and just concentrate on studying already :/

Spoke to Ms Tee on Friday and lucky for me, she understood how I felt... But it made me remember the times in primary school when I was called an underachiever :/ It sucked because I was forced to study more...

Anyway, I going to go prepare for my concert already...

Will try to not be soooo sad or emo ^^

-hiding behind the mask of smiling face and strong appearance, is a fragile sad heart yearning for happiness and bliss-

Back Again

That feeling is back again....

Feeling shitty and stuff :/

It's times like this when I really hate myself!!!

I want to rebel!!!

I want to go against people, to not take any instructions, to live life my way...

I want a piercing!!!

I seem to be going downhill again...

It's the time again :/

It's like a cycle that repeats itself every three to four months...

I doubt anyone will understand

sighzzzzzzz......

hope it passes quickly this time...

You never fail to make me smile even in the darkest periods ^^

Mixed Emotions

Been listening to lots of songs...

I feel that I should post some of them with the lyrics too.

When you were standing in the wake of devastation
when you were waiting on the edge of the unknown
with the cataclysm raining down, insides crying save me now
you were there and possibly alone.

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
you build up hope, but failure's all you've known
remember all the sadness and frustration
and let it go, let it go.

And in the burst of light that blinded every angel
as if the sky had blown the heavens into stars
you felt the gravity of temper grace falling into empty space
no one there to catch you in their arms


Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
you build up hope, but failure's all you've known
remember all the sadness and frustration
and let it go, let it go.

(Multiple Voices)
Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
you build up hope, but failure's all you've known
remember all the sadness and frustration
and let it go,

let it go
let it go
let it go
let it go

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
you build up hope, but failure's all you've known
remember all the sadness and frustration
and let it go, let it go.

I can be tough, I can be strong
But with you it's not like that at all
There's a girl that gives a shit
Behind this wall, you've just walked through it

And I remember all those crazy things you said, you left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere, but right now I wish you were here
All those crazy things we did, didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere, but right now I wish you were here

Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you here, here, here, I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you near, near, near, I wish you were here

I love the way you are
It's who I am, don't have to try hard
We always say, say it like it is
And the truth is that I really miss

All those crazy things you said, you left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere, but right now I wish you were here
All those crazy things we did, didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere, but right now I wish you were here

Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you here, here, here, I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you near, near, near, I wish you were here

No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you to know
That I never wanna let go
Let go, oh oh

No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you to know
That I never wanna let go
(Let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go..)

Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you here, here, here, I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you near, near, near, I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you here, here, here, I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you near, near, near, I wish you were here

I’m sad, so sad.
Crying and crying
My day without you is so hard
I hate you, I hate this hurtful pain
My tears keep falling since you left

I still see your face
All those memories of me with you keep coming to my mind
Everyday I meet with all my friends to drink, only remembering your face feels like a dagger in my heart
I forgot that you’ve forgotten that big smile but, we said you said you erased and cleared me from your head
This can’t be like this (really) that can’t be (really)
What will I do?

Baby one last cry
[you're crying inside] Now stop smiling on the outside
Why do my heart and my eyes keep looking at only you?

I’m sad, so sad.
Crying and crying
My day without you is so hard
I hate you, I hate this hurtful pain
My tears keep falling since you left

Are you forgotten? Have you forgotten how I look?
You heard I was fine so you’re comfortable without me?
You didn’t forget about me already
You’re looking for another love. Will you erase me?

I won’t, I’m not saying you only saw me drunk
Will you hear? Are you hearing me calling only for you?
A day (is passing) a month (is passing)
Why does my heart feel the same way?

Baby one last cry
[you're crying inside] Now stop smiling on the outside
Why do my heart and my eyes keep looking at only you?

I’m sad, so sad.
Crying and crying
My day without you is so hard
I hate you, I hate this hurtful pain
My tears keep falling since you left

Come back
I still only see you, I’m waiting for your love

Baby one last cry
[you're crying inside] Now stop smiling on the outside
Why do my heart and my eyes keep looking at only you?

I’m sad, so sad.
Crying and crying
My day without you is so hard
I hate you, I hate this hurtful pain
My heart is crying since your left

[DJ] When the world turns dark
And the rain quietly falls
Everything is still
.
[KK] Even today, without a doubt
I can’t get out of it
I can’t get out from the thoughts of you
.
[YS] Now
I know that it’s the end
I know that it’s all just foolishness
Now I know that it’s not true
[HS] I am just disappointed in myself for
Not being able to get a hold of you because of that pride
.
[YS] On the rainy days you come and find me
Torturing me through the night
When the rain starts to stop, you follow
Slowly, little by little, you will stop as well

[JH] I must be drunk, I think I need to stop drinking
Since the rain is falling, I think I might fall as well
Well this doesn’t mean that I miss you, no it doesn’t mean that
It just means that the time we had together was a bit sharp
When it’s the type of day that you really liked
I keep opening the raw memories of you
Making the excuse that it’s all memories, I take a step forward
I don’t even make the effort to escape
.
[DW] Now
I erased all of you
I emptied out all of you
But when the rain falls again
[KK] All the memories of you I hid with effort
It all comes back, it must be looking for you
.
[YS] On the rainy days you come and find me
Torturing me through the night
When the rain starts to stop, you follow
Slowly, little by little, you will stop as well
.
(To you) [HS] Now there is no path for me to return
But looking at your happy face
[DW] I will still try to laugh since I was the one
Without the strength to stop you
.
[YS] On the rainy days you come and find me
Torturing me through the night
When the rain starts to stop, you follow
Slowly, little by little, you will stop as well
.
[JH] What can I do about something that already ended?
I’m just regretting after like the stupid fool I am
Rain always falls so it will repeat again
When it stops, that’s when I will stop as well
.
[JH] Rain always falls so it will repeat again
When it stops, that’s when I will stop as well

[Adam Levine]
My heart's a stereo
It beats for you, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every note

Make me your radio
Turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo

[Travie McCoy]
If I was just another dusty record on the shelf
Will you blow me off and play me like everybody else
If I ask you to scratch my back, could you manage that
Like it read well, check it Travie, I can handle that
Furthermore, I apologize for any skipping tracks
It's just the last girl that played me left a couple cracks
I used to used to used to used to, now I’m over that
Cause holding grudges over love is ancient artifacts

If I could only find a note to make you understand
I'd sing it softly in your ear and grab you by the hand
Keep it stuck your head, like your favorite tune
And know my heart is a stereo that only plays for you

[Chorus]
My heart's a stereo
It beats for you, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every note

Make me your radio
Turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo

Oh oh oh oh To my stereo
Oh oh oh oh So sing along to my stereo

[Travie McCoy]
If I was an old-school, fifty pound boombox
Would you hold me on your shoulder, wherever you walk
Would you turn my volume up in front of the cops
And crank it higher everytime they told you to stop
And all I ask is that you don't get mad at me
When you have to purchase mad D batteries
Appreciate every mixtape your friends make
You never know we come and go like we're on the interstate

I think finally found a note to make you understand
If you can hit it, sing along and take me by the hand
Keep myself inside your head, like your favorite tune
And know my heart is a stereo that only plays for you

[Chorus]
My heart's a stereo
It beats for you, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every note

Make me your radio
Turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo

Oh oh oh oh To my stereo
Oh oh oh oh So sing along to my stereo

[Bridge]
I only pray you never leave me behind (Never leave me)
Because good music can be so hard to find (So hard to find)
I take your hand and pull it closer to mine
Thought love was dead, but now you're changing my mind

[Chorus]
My heart's a stereo
It beats for you, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every note

Make me your radio
Turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo

Oh oh oh oh To my stereo
Oh oh oh oh So sing along to my stereo

I was on the mic

Doing my thing on a friday night

Had the floor burning up just right
Everybody was bumping', the club was jumping
Suddenly, you walked in
That's when everybody stopped dancing
And I couldn't stop myself staring
Yeah I couldn't breath, No I couldn't believe my eyes

I never thought I'd fall in love in a club
But now I seen you girl I can't get enough
With you I know there's no taking it slow
So can somebody please let me know

[Chorus]
Tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Just walk walk (walk), walk walk (walk), yeah

Before the night is through
Imma tell ya how I feel about you
And I know I got some work to do
To make you believe that you should be leaving with me

I never thought I'd fall in love in a club
The more I get of you, I can't get enough
I won't be letting you leave here alone
So can somebody please let me know

[Chorus]
Tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Just walk walk (walk), walk walk (walk)

(I wanna know) Tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
(Who's that girl) Tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Just walk walk (walk), walk walk (walk)

[Eve]
E.V.E
I walk in the club it's over
All them other chicks might as well move over
Wanna know my name then you gotta get closer
Eyes on you too wanna get to know ya
Lemme run it down for ya, I'm not easy
Some say caramel, you can call me evie
Wanna be the man in my life that please me
Gotta warn in, Once ya know me, you need me
Give you whip lash when I glide through the room
Five inch heals, watch how I move
Watch how I shake it to the beat, how I do
Know you wanna feel me, feel me shake it on you, yeah
The night could get crazy
But I gotta hold back, I'm a lady
Well who knows maybe I could be your baby
Be your baby, be your baby

[Guy]
Wo-oh
Wo-oh oh
Wo-oh
Wo-oh

[Chorus]
So, tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Just walk walk (walk) in the club

Tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Tell me who's that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Just walk walk (walk) in the club